Sunday, June 19, 2011

Baek SEUNGJO DIARY

























Day1

One day I met this random girl making lots of noise at the vending machine. For a moment, I think it's really amazing, wanting to ask how come there's a girl like this. But I’m still not that interested and walk away. All this only lasted till i received love letter from her.
What I’m fairy from the jungle. Which comic did she get this from? Looks like she’s only reading comic instead of studying, full of mistakes everywhere, even the handwriting is bad.
I definitely can’t tolerate this how dare she writes this kind of letter to me, the perfect baek seung jo . You are a complete D.
Cause the girl to be embarrassed in front of so many people unexpectedly. Although I’m feeling a little bad, but she’s already in year 3 and year she couldn’t even write a simple letter like this. Hope that this incident will be able to wake her up. Although her about to cry expression did make me feel a little guilty, but the rumor about me dumping this girl starts to spread around in the school. Because of this, i was made fun of by my friends. All the explanation makes me even more irritated.
How can it be possible that bottom student of our school. Wu Ha Ni is the daughter of dad’s friend! Mom is happily moving eun jo’s furniture into my room and even bought tons of stuff for girl. I can’t help but imagine how did she get on with her life till now?
Although i pray that there won’t be any disturbance to my daily life, but why do I still have a very bad feeling. Wu Ha Ni who was happily hugging a soft toy in one hand, holding to a bag with another froze the moment she saw me. This is really funny.

Day 2
On this side, she’s saying "if there’s a need I can also get into special class that only the top50 student could get in", on the other side she’s embarrassing herself in front of eun jo. She’s really weird. Although Eun Jo says that he hates mom, but he’s still force to move into my room. Uncovered the muddle-head personality on the first day shes being fooled.

She’s chasing after me with her short legs. Don’t tell me I’ll be chased like this for the rest of my life. This thought starts to appear in my mind. Always getting link to her recently, all the rumors are making me pissed off, so I warned her not to start any rumors in school. Also asked her to swear that she will act like she doesnt know me in school. But no matter how mean is my words, she just stand there and listen to me.
What happen?
Why do I have an uneasy feeling like something is tied to my ankle?

Although I said that I will wait for her to come home, but I still went off without her. It’s very irritating to be walking around with others, doing things facing each other, listening to people nagging is as irritating. But she always caught me. Saw a very weird guy this morning when I’m heading out, and there’s still some distance from the station to our house.
So irritating why she has to appear before me and mess up my daily life. So irritating!

She’s not even afraid when she met with pervert, only wanting to get back her shoes. She’s really weird. When she looks at me with her innocent eyes and tells me it’s the first present she receive from mom, a feeling called sincerity prickled really softly in my heart.

Day 2 part 2


Oh my even got sportswear wrong! So irritating! But this girl is really daring, she dares to ask me to teach her, and still saying that she will call off the promise that I need to piggybank her.
This is annoying, why did my mom give this girl my photo! This is the period that I want to get rid off from my life most.
The time when I still know nothing , I always get praised by my friends when I dress as girl , I was the centre of attraction, and this makes my little soul very happy, also when I dress a girl the adults always praise that I’m so cute that they wants to bite me. But one day in school, when I change into my swimming attire my friends starts calling me a pervert, those kids who use to play with me starts mocking me. From then onwards, I can’t believe in anyone amore. I always felt that no matter how much I tell you I like you now, but if anything happens anything can change,

I can agree to teach her to get back my photo. But this girl really knows nothing, no strategy works! ask her to give up from the beginning, but she just ignores it, saying that just like I don’t know any of the artiste name , it’s just that the area we are concern about it different.

That’s true since it has already become like this, but even so she’s really to ignorant to be a year 3 student.

But by looking at this she’s really determine. Although she couldn’t keep up, but still working hard, the never give up character is kind of special.

She got into the special class in the end, Wu Ha Ni I acknowledge your hard work.
Although i warn her again and again not to talk to me in school, but she’s still shouting thank you behind me , it’s really ... this kid can’t help it.
Ok ill tolerate it just for today, i know how she have worked hard for the past 1 week

But what? Ask me to piggy bank her>?


DAY #3


Seems like I’m getting use to living together with this kid after a month ,no , or should I say I have already gotten use to the trouble that she cause me? KekE!

Because of school, the chances of us meeting increased. One day I was rushing to the toilet because of tummy ache, but can only listen to her singing behind the door. Can’t help but wonder what is she doing in there, doesn’t wants to come out? Really....

So from today onwards, I wakes up earlier than her to use the bathroom first, this is really interesting!

Why is her toothbrush place together with mine? Even Eunjo feels discontented about it. Because I heard about placing toothbrush together will cause a very weird feeling in the past, its making me feel strange now.

This kids who are waving her hand saying "HELLO!" don’t even know our home address. If I act as if i didn’t know, and not greeting , definitely will have to listen to my mom nag; if I don’t go school together with her, i will have to hear my mom nag; if I come back and not walking with her through that dark alley I will have to listen to my mom nag. Because of this kid, I have to listen to all the nagging that I don’t have to in the past, does she know it! Miss trouble WU HA NI!!

Sound of her bickering with Eun Jo the noise of their running up and down the stairs, the voice of hers chatting with mom , because of all these noise , my home is in mess. But Ha Ni various voices make me prick up my ears.

Day #3 part 2

Is that so? Since when, little by little, this kid starts to feel like a family?

The moment that I know it was this kid that was fooling around with me. I can’t help but pinch her face, the moment when I pinch her, i felt a little panic, I don’t easily make body contact with others, but why am I able to stretch out my hands so naturally this time.

Seems like the start of accepting Eun jo's joke?

Whole screaming in agony, her expression turns ugly, but at this one moment, I actually think that she’s a little cute.

"Pu" afraid that I will laugh, I quickly turn away to block myself from her, and at this very moment, I realize our hearts got nearer again!

Feels as if the cool autumn wind is blowing. When I decide to piggyback WU HA NI, this BOng Joon Gu got to do it first, don’t know why but I feel a little angry, I definitely don’t have plans to piggyback her. No matter what, i still think that HA Ni, who mess up my life is very irritating.

The moment when I saw the two of them hugging together when they win the tug of war,

"What is this, what is this situation?"

My heart hurts a little. Why? Heart feels as if it’s being tied up by something, like the moment with thunder in the summer sky. Mood turns grey out of sudden. This is has nothing to do with me at all!

This is the first time, working hard for something. While looking at Bong Jung GU who was screaming on top of his lungs cause of his anger, my mood can’t help but turn better. The pumpkin head WU HA NI who passed me the baton, although she still doesn’t make sense, but heart is still the same , why does it makes me feel good? Recently, when we meet each other but act as if we didn’t see, I don’t know why, but it feels like something is holding tight to my heart.

DAY#4

This is ridiculous. What does she have in mind to bring that photo to school? She wants so much to be associated with me?

Also why did mom publish this photo on blog...?

Public danger WU HA NI!!

YA Baek Seung jo isnt he funny?

Acting arrogant, really, started long ago"

“But why must it be WU HA NI? That fool"

"Should have? Don’t tell me the two already"

“But WU HA NI, isn’t she dating BOONg Joon Gu?"

“So its BAek SeungJo snatching from him?"

Mumbles everywhere , whole school is like a beehive every time when i walk past , don’t ever bother to find out from me about the truth , it gets bigger and bigger like a snowball, don’t even know what happen and those people are talking about others , I hate it , I’m like in a drain now ....

WU HA NI!!! Hates it..

"Stop acting like this"

"I dislike people like you most"

"Stupid, don’t understand the situation yet acting like you know everything"

Coldly, releasing all the anger that accumulated, actually it’s not all directed towards Ha Ni, just that there's too many frustrating things, I’m just looking for the somewhere to vent my anger.

So... So...

Only, when I saw that despair in her innocent eyes, I looked away.

"It’s not that , it’s me."

"Seungjo will definitely think that I did it on purpose"

"Seems like the impact is very big"

Hearing the voice that I hate, the voice that gives me headache coming through the window ... Silly

Why didn’t I get angry so suddenly? Still when her friends are around ...how embarrassing?

Why is it that my anger rises up so suddenly, started scolding just like that, didn’t manage to control it.... I have never been this fierce to anyone before .Accompanying the moonlight that shines into the room is her deep voice. The sad voice that comes with the wind.

Day 4 part two

I want to tease her whenever I see her. Shiver by a gentle touch, her reaction is so interesting. When touched, will opens up like a spring, so amazing.

Angry the previous moment, and smiling the next, combination of all kinds of emotion.

HANI is like a small child.

What’s the meaning of throwing socks, so curious, but she’s so frantic. Much faster than she look? Even a fool will know... kekeke

Running and falling over and over,

Smiling and running over just like first time, when her around, ill smile once in a while. I’ll say it again, just once in a while.

Because of mom's order, I have to bring water to her

Scary things almost happen; my heart is still thumping now, and uncle who drop into hell for the moment...

Sorry! Sorry! Hani will cry if were to say more.

So that’s it, this two person is the two other than my family, other than 2 who doesn’t feel the danger. Really went deep into my heart.

Maybe is Hani really met with accident , uncle will not be able to live alone.... What will happen to me? I....

Fool!!

Wu Ha Ni!! You are really a fool.

You don’t know how to swim and yet you just jump into the water like this, tons of trouble , never ending trouble , although kept torturing her with all the harsh words, but in her heart, the extend that she’s even willing to die to protect , this kind of passion feel a bit heavy .

Bong JoongGu , Wu Hani , this two person are very alike. To protect the people they love, to the extent of jumping into the fire. The concentration on running ahead with all their might. Like a fool....

What is the thing that you want to protect?

What is it that you want to protect so earnestly?

Day 4 part 3

Wu hani

Is there a limit to your busybody?

With you Hani as a start, then is your 2 friends,

Now even your whole class?

What is in your brain?

That gives you the idea to bring so many people back to our house?

Even though I rejected because I’m tired, but looking at you rubbing your hands and pleading me,

I feel your sincerity, couldn’t ignore it in the end.

Wu HA NI!!

What is the thing that you want to protect?

Who gave you love like this?

Things that I don’t have it, why do you have it....

Why do i have to teach class 7 who have nothing to do with me...? Really don’t understand.

WUHANI

Look at how strong are you. Able to lead me around like this...

"Because I’m smart, I’m also well in cooking!"

Actually i said that on purpose to make you hear. If so, JoonGu who looks like a fool, he should be quite clever. How good is the teokbokki that he makes, praising him like there's no tomorrow?

You are really funny when you fall into my trap.

Throwing the stone towards WU Ha Ni.

"Clear up! Clean up the stove area!"

The look when she’s grumbling because she didn’t even get to eat a single bite, dislike it just by looking

You who always make my heart waver,

I really dislike you

I hid about my true feelings today again, this is really frustrating.

Day 5 part 1

Wu Hani is so daring!

Coming into the room of a hot blooded 19 years old guy room

(hahaha love it GEllo! well they say that all man in this state which if they are inside in a room together with a girl they like or any girl they became animals XD)

Genius BAek Seungjo teasing silly Wu ha ni system started!

hahahahah

Why do I always have the urge to make fun of her whenever i see her?

Recently i start to think that she’s really interesting!

“There’s no adult at home, how is it?!"

As if there is really something on, I spoke in a deep voice.

This kid who doesn’t know anything, she must really got a shock.

Hear the heart thumping like a drum coming from the chest, thump thump!

But, I originally started this joke just to tease her, why is my heart beating this fast as well?

The hand that I caught, who does it belongs to, why does it feels so hot.

It’s that right!

When I carried you on my back when you was drunk, the sound of your heart beating came from behind me, this is the first time in my life I feel the body of a woman.

At the soft touch of it, I can’t help but to say all the harsh words to reduce the uneasy feeling.

“You are so scheming, what else you want in future?'

Same as the day that we went to the beach, when i comment about you looking like a primary school kid, your shoulder in the sunlight, your pale arms and legs are those shining.

Even if so I didn’t know that a simple joke like this is actually a punishment.

Recently, feels really complicated as I become not like me anymore.

"Here, will start thumping when you find something you like!”

'Even till now, if my dad smells the raw noodle, his heart will also start thumping!"

Ha Ni’s words struck me like lightning. What do I really like?

Is there anything that makes my heart thump like this before? Seems like till now, there isnt anything that interest me or I really like.

It’s always easier for me to learn than others, can always master the tactic of sports very fast, so I’m able to learn everything very fast, so there's nothing difficult for m.

Because of my family, I can get things easily if i want. This is the first time i thought of something like this. I really envy this kid who tries to get into University to find the things that she wants to do.

For me, who grew up thus far without any dream, I'm disappoint at myself

Day 5 part 2

How to live my life, how is like suppose to be,

A question that you couldn’t get a satisfied answer even from adult.

But this kid actually told me that, there is definitely something that I must do, with smart brain, I have to use it on others.

For the first time,

I actually look at people other than myself.

“DO well for your test, Baek SeungJO Jjiang!"

Just a few words, I receive the trust in me from this kid. The trust from this kid always success is trying me up.

Look carefully at this world; find the thing that you really want to do.

Waving goodbye without looking back, it may look like I don’t care can you understand? This action includes many meaning.

Sure, Ha ni ah you do well for your exams too, don’t fail ! Ha Ni ah, you also have to do your best!

Really thankful to you for last night, for the porridge the fork or the BAEK Seungjo jjiang.

The warm concern from you is able to perk me up a lot better than the cold wind that blows into my face.

Lucky really lucky!!

Didn’t give up even after being through all that. Even persevere to the interview, after the few days of torture, finally it’s over.

Noah's snail Wu Hani!

Thank you for braving the storm and moving forward, thank you for praying for others success right from the beginning.

Day 6 part 1

Carrying you who are bleeding, running with all my might to the hospital.

At that moment I can only think of one thing, you have to be alright.

Wu Hani you are such a energetic kid, you'll be alright. My heart starts to acknowledge thousands of thoughts like this.

Stupid irritating Wu HA NI, you still get into such a big trouble in the end!

Looking at you crying, this is the first time I know that it’s possible to cry for others.

Looking at you sniffing to control your tears, this is the first time I know that others pain can also become mine.

Like this, the pain will also only be half.

Like the little match Girl fairytale we read when we are young , peering around because she’s envious of all the warmth in others home , it’s like she’s able to get tons of energy from that mild warmth coming through the window , I also got the energy from the warm window.

Of course I know that if I rush to the interview right after sending you to the hospital, but I kept thinking that what if you woke up before anyone is here?

Even if it’s not because of you will wake up in the unfamiliar hospital, I also worry about you , this timid.

You will probably feel sad if you are alone....

In the end it’s still like before. In just a few days, says that because you felt sorry, wouldn’t eat anything, avoid seeing me.

In the end even says that you want to leave the hour, packing your luggage and prepare to leave. Luckily I was waiting outside the door. Silly Wu Hani!

To be honest, to me, University or top notch university means nothing to me. If I really want to learn anything, I can learn it myself; don’t have to be in University.

I’m sick of the expectation from the adult because of the word genius; I also hate all the rules in society that are pulling us around. There’s really nothing I want to learn, also nothing that I’m interested in.

But now, all i want is to live my life with more interest. Now with my unconcerned character, it’s impossible for me to bring happiness to others.

But I was really influenced by this interesting thought from Wu Hani; I already walk into this kid life unknowingly.

Day 6 part 2

I rejected everyone request to take photo, but still got caught my Wu Ha Ni in the end.

It still feels very awkward to take photo now. I’ve had been force by mom to take countless photo since young, but from then onwards, I already close my heart from this world. I dislike forcing myself to smile, and because of my mom, in all the photos; my expression all looks so stiff.

But today is a little different to help her in front of Rose who always bullied her , I peeled off the cool me , just to take it as giving this kid a present .

“Thank You"

She said; even feel so happy by just taking a photo. How can I just let her off like this, haha.

"Customer, please take 8,800 won!"

Recalled what happen at the convenience store, her expression when she got a shock was really worth it.

It’s ok that you didn’t know the other meaning behind this,

Wu Hani, you have worked hard,

Wu ha Ni thanks you for the present.

I will smile brightly forever in that photo.

It’s still Bong Joong Gu, he’s still following Wu Hani around. Creating disturbance, wearing that shiny weird suit singing a song confession song to Wu Ha ni with his bunch of brothers.

I really hate this guy who is able to confess his feelings so easily. Singing and holding on to Wu Ha Ni's hand, just like a small kid. An unknown anger rise within me.

How can Wu ha ni know that the feeling of this guy, yet she just let him go on like this.

Aren’t she’s saying all day that she likes me, so why is she allowing him to hold on to her hand, allowing him to bug you and yet showing like you are really shy?

because of this unknown feeling to me , it’s like water are all stuck in my throat, all thorns growing in my mouth , I can’t stand it.

Day6 part 3

"From now on, I will forget you!”

"Now I clearly see you, Baek Seungjo's character, so I will forget you!",

“I want to end the life I have for you since middle school!"

Looking at your crying face, and hearing you say all these, my body frozen all of sudden.

I forgot about all the harsh words I said in front of all those students and teacher in that moment, also forgot all those hurting words I said to you , it’s like being despise by you suddenly.

Compared to just now when you show everyone my childhood photo, this moment seems like I feel more, more, more, more angry.

Although you said the same thing before, but you will still come back in the end. But this time, it seems like she really wants to put an end to it, her expression looks tough.

For that second, it feels like there’s a gush of cold wind blowing from my back.

"Really? If you really can forget, then forget it! "

Am I crazy I just kissed her like this?

“You definitely, can’t go anywhere else!"

It’s like I’m trying to be certain of her feeling.

"You have to stay by my side. Didn’t you say that you will make my life interesting, and now you are taking it back?"

We did make a promise like this right.

Hani lips feel so hot, no, or it is my lips?

Young and childish heart is like it caught on fire, although didn’t say anything, but I’m sorry.

I don’t even know if its first kiss but i just did it like this...

Looking at your shock face, actually I’m really panic at that moment.

"Expression aren’t bad, I’m kidding!"

Baek Seungjo! This is really pathetic.

You will never know that now in my heart, I’m also lost, the Wu Hani who keeps wavering my heart makes me.....

Met her outside the bathroom with this indifferent feeling,

“Really stupid!"

Saying a thing that doesn’t reflect my heart, I’m just a boy who couldn’t face my own feeling.

Wu Hani, why is it you again!

Dint you say you want to forget about me, so kiss still have some effect!

Hani starts hanging around me, Baek Seungjo again, innocent fellow.

Now that the new life in University has started, are you still going to be like as before?

This kid life is really that all about self entertaining, outrageous, Wu Ha ni how long are you going to continue like this?